A Reminder to Trust in Jesus - A Letter from Jennifer
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Dear Sisters in Christ,
Sometimes Jesus has to bop you upside the head with a 2x4 to get your attention. You feel me?
The last three years, during which my husband unexpectedly lost his job, have tested my faith in God mightily. Each time our situation went from bad to worse, I would find myself wondering ‘why’. I felt utterly abandoned. I could feel myself becoming more bitter and angry with each passing day, trying my best not to let others see.
By the time Lent came around this year, I was determined to accept and lovingly embrace whatever He sent me. A friend gifted me with a ticket to an upcoming Blessed is She retreat in our neck of the woods, and I accepted gratefully.
The entire day was a joy from beginning to end, but Jesus saved the best for last. During the period of adoration at end of the retreat, Father processed to the row knelt in, coming to a stop directly in front of me. As I gazed at Our Lord, I felt him beckoning me to reach out and touch. Clasping the monstrance, I quite literally felt Love flowing into my body, taking over my very being.
I broke down and sobbed uncontrollably. At that moment, it was crystal clear: Jesus loves me beyond anything I could ever imagine. He has been right here with me through it all, loving me and providing what I need to make it through each day. I had been trying so very hard to escape the loving hands of the Divine Gardener, who was pruning away my dead branches so that good fruit could be borne for His glory. He wanted to strip me of everything comforting in my life so that I would throw myself at His feet, depending solely upon Him, but I had been refusing his ministrations, preferring my vision of how things should be.
No more! Jesus rocked my world that day, and I am forever changed. I will never again doubt Thomas’ His love and goodness. Sisters... I just want to encourage you, if you are going through a difficult season in life... Trust Him, abandon yourself joyfully to His will, believe He knows what is best for you (He does!). Let Him support you through your trials. Listen for His voice. He wants you to know how much He loves you. Because He really does.
In His Love, Jennifer XOXOXO
Get to know Jennifer
Tell us a little bit about yourself!
My name is Jennifer Ann (Bernadette - confirmation Saint!) Brannon. I’m 45 and currently am working as an administrative assistant for our local school district, after being a SAHM/homeschooler for about 15 years.
What do the first two hours of your day look like?
Wake up around 6 am, pray my morning prayers/read my devotional. Eat breakfast. Shower and dress, head off to work, and settle in for a long day of shuffling papers. Lol
Describe your favorite part of your current occupation.
My favorite part of my current occupation is the keeping my boss organized/things running smoothly part. I hope to use those skills in another occupation of my choosing within the next couple of years!
Describe one fear or personal challenge that keeps you up at night.
What fear or challenge keeps me up at night? Honestly, the fear (and challenge) of being the woman God calls me to be. Have I done my best as a mom? As a wife? To be a light to those I cross paths with each day? I long to ‘do life’ well, and fear I am not always living up to my potential.
Tell us about the first time you experienced a strong sense of belonging in the church.
The first time I experienced a strong sense of belonging in the Catholic Church was about 10 years ago, when we moved to a small suburban town with a small, tight-knit, brand new parish. We are truly ‘family’ here!
Tell us about a woman you look up to!
My mom - she raised my sisters and I alone after my dad died (I was 11, my sisters 7 and 5.)
Favorite character ever. Go!
Favorite literary character: I would have to go with Rafiki from The Lion King... Wise, yet hi-freakin’-larious!